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Old news

I thought that I should write something while I have some free time rather than play computer games… ;-)) There were some old news I wanted to let you in on. On February 19th one of my dear course-mates – Sandra turned a glorious 25 and got a digital camera for her birthday. As some of you might know or might have experienced I can’t keep my hands off digital technology… So I basically ended up taking a good half of the pictures that afternoon. Therefore I decided to post these pictures here. After all it was the Danes coming back together. And some other people as well… ;-))

The other news is that in a couple of hours I’ll be off to Berlin to visit my dear neighbour Susanne. After my express trip to London I decided that it’s easy enough. And I honestly must say that I have been looking forward to this trip a lot as Susanne is a very sweet person. And she’s German. And she promised to talk German to me. And that’s what I’ve wanted to do for the last 6 years ever since I began studying Danish and it was slowly killing my active German… So hold on to your seats, Berlin, here I come!!

How do you lose a friend?

Lately I’ve been thinking... What do you do when love dies?... One day you wake up and realize that it’s gone. As if it never existed. Suddenly everything you loved about that person drives you nuts. And when you look back, there is no clear explanation. You never saw it coming. One day it was just… there… out of the blue… Do you ever find out why this happened? Because I never stop asking myself why... What did I do wrong? Was it something I thought that planted the seed for this dreadful sudden change? Was it something I did? Or perhaps something the other person did? As if no… both of us lived our lives as usual. Then it really must be something inside me because the other person does not share the feeling. The other person is devastated to find out that my love is dead. And you feel guilty. Because you feel free... All of a sudden being alone is not that bad. It turns out to be better than being with that particular person. But how can you say it to the other person? But you have to say something as the person feels your cold shoulder. Maybe it’s not even the cold shoulder. Maybe it’s just the official you. But you’re not official with your best friend. Or with a lover. And they feel it. And they know it. And they start blaming themselves… Despite the fact that it might actually be only your fault. Or nobody’s fault at all! Simply the circumstances were not favourable for your union… I cannot explain why it happened. I have no idea how my love could have dried up. And I have to say something to the person. But it terrifies me. I know that there can be no positive outcome as long as my love is dead. Will I ever manage to revive it? What can I do in the meantime? How can I look that person in the eyes? Especially because the person does not see the problem I see… Do I just let go? Do I lose a good friend just like that? ‘A good friend’? Make it ‘family’… And all of this just because I have not been able to keep my love alive?...

At moments like these there is one piece of writing that I like to read. From time to time. And it never fails to… make me cry! It is written by someone I knew for a summer. Someone that I have not lost my love for… He’s the black-haired handsome guy on the left… ;-)) Enjoy!

P.S. I still have no idea what Jim Croce sounds like...